The Savior Complex!
During the past few weeks, I’ve realized how much I struggle with seeing people live a life of mediocrity or hypocrisy. I tend to want more for some people than they want for themselves and I noticed that this mentality had impacted how I functioned in some relationships. I would become frustrated, not wanting to deal with certain people, because salvation just wasn’t manifesting. I’m an intercessor with a heart for the lost, rejected, abandoned, hopeless, etc. I desire to see the best in everyone, but there are times when my desire to see someone do better turns into a burden because I quickly forget that the decision to change must be made by that person. No, I don’t stop praying, but I do release the burden because my formation won’t allow me to live a life feeling so heavy.
In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus reminds us that it's not my job to take on the cares of the world and allow them to turn into burdens. 28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. Upon reflecting on these things, God reminded me that I was never designed to be a savior. Too many times, myself and others, have dedicated our lives to save someone forgetting that salvation only comes through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. With every revelation, I use my gifts to share them with the world, so here’s my new poem, The Savior Complex!
Yes, it's true! I always pray for you, but
I was never designed to be a savior…
My heart aches when you operate at a level beneath your full potential.
My pain capacity is not large enough to carry the weight of such burdens that begin to drag me down emotionally and physically.
The idea of lifetime availability and being a ride or die sounds nice
Until I find my spirit slowing dying while you’re not riding.
I was never designed to be a savior.
I caught myself acting like Ms. Fix-It, trying to fix all your problems or more so fix you, forgetting that the only fixing that can be done by me is within me, not you.
The best I can do, in terms of saving you, is introduce you to the one who was actually designed to be a savior.
Created in the image of the Almighty, he was sent in the form of a child and raised up as a man.
Rejected and persecuted, yet remaining dependent upon His father, God.
I often think about all the burdens he carried, being made a sacrificial offering who died for our yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
He was designed to be a savior.
Although my prayers avail, they were never meant to substitute relationship with the Almighty.
For it is through him and only through him that we are saved, so forgive me for causing any confusion or sowing seeds of codependency because
I was not designed to be a savior.
In fact, the one who was designed to be a savior saved me because I couldn’t even save myself. It is He who gives me life, for in him I live and breathe and have my being.
As much as I desire to see you delivered and set free, it is only you who can receive Christ’s salvation by wholeheartedly confessing your sins, asking for forgiveness, declaring your faith in who he is and accepting him as your Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Now, let the one who was designed to be a savior be your savior too!
It wouldn’t be right to end this poem about my Savior, without giving you the opportunity to make him your savior, so if you are simply tired of trying to do things out of your own might, tired of feeling like no one loves you, or even tired of not seeing any progress in your life, I would like for you to pray this prayer of salvation. Salvation doesn’t mean everything will be perfect, but I will guarantee you that it will open the door for every aspect of your life to get better.
Prayer of Salvation
I know that I am a sinner. I repent of my sins and ask for your forgiveness. I believe that you are the Son of God. The one who died for my sins and rose again. Please come into my life and fill me with your Spirit. I receive you as my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen!